Hey. I just wanted ya'll to know that I haven't been on in a week because I was grounded. I trust you all with what I have to say (Even though we've never meet haha) and I just wanted you all to know why I haven't been on. I would really, really appreciate it (If you're Christian) to pray for me and my family, that we'd get through what we're going through.
I'm in 8th grade, and I've been really depressed since 4th. I've been really, really mean and nasty to my parents and family because of it, and afterwards I feel so terrible about it and myself cuz I love them so much and have been patient and caring to me when I wasn't to them. It's been going on for YEARS now, and I just do the same terrible things over and over, never getting better, never really wanting to. ("Sometimes I don't wanna be better"…sound familiar?)
Everyone has a mean voice inside their heads that whispers evil in your conscience, and mine's on overdrive. It makes me feel so depressed, so discouraged, so much like I'll never get any better at being part of my 6-person family.
So last Sunday, when my emotions were too much to bear, I cut myself. Not deep, not enough to pour out blood but enough to feel pain. It made me feel good, and yet so horrible at the same time. I wanted to punish myself for punishing the ones I love needlessly.
My parents found out (Or rather I told them) and took me to a therapist-person and she's helping with my depression. I'm already getting better!
I just wanted you all to know, because I could really use some prayer, and
I've got some awesome friends here, too. ;)
Thanks for reading this…God bless!
Need Some Prayer, Please...
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Need Some Prayer, Please...says (07 May '12)47Everything But Skillet
Hey. I just wanted ya'll to know that I haven't been on in a week because I was grounded. I trust you all with what I have to say (Even though we've never meet haha) and I just wanted you all to know why I haven't been on. I would really, really appreciate it (If you're Christian) to pray for me and my family, that we'd get through what we're going through.
I'm in 8th grade, and I've been really depressed since 4th. I've been really, really mean and nasty to my parents and family because of it, and afterwards I feel so terrible about it and myself cuz I love them so much and have been patient and caring to me when I wasn't to them. It's been going on for YEARS now, and I just do the same terrible things over and over, never getting better, never really wanting to. ("Sometimes I don't wanna be better"…sound familiar?)
Everyone has a mean voice inside their heads that whispers evil in your conscience, and mine's on overdrive. It makes me feel so depressed, so discouraged, so much like I'll never get any better at being part of my 6-person family.
So last Sunday, when my emotions were too much to bear, I cut myself. Not deep, not enough to pour out blood but enough to feel pain. It made me feel good, and yet so horrible at the same time. I wanted to punish myself for punishing the ones I love needlessly.
My parents found out (Or rather I told them) and took me to a therapist-person and she's helping with my depression. I'm already getting better!
I just wanted you all to know, because I could really use some prayer, and
I've got some awesome friends here, too. ;)
Thanks for reading this…God bless!
dude or dudet we will always
dude or dudet we will always have your back and mountain dew(lol) will continue to pray for you:)
and its good to hear/read that you no have nightmares anymore
Fellow bird lover, I will be
Fellow bird lover, I will be praying for you and am glad things are going better. I have struggled with depression in the past, and now whenever I feel down, I pray about it (and I also pray for Skillet too, because it makes me feel better) and read from the Bible.
Hey, that's awesome, Julia!
Hey, that's awesome, Julia!
yay!!
yay!!
Hey Luke, I think that verse
Hey Luke, I think that verse worked. No nightmares. :)
Oh my gosh thank you guys so
Oh my gosh thank you guys so much...you have no idea how good that makes me feel... :D
:P
:P
Brothers and Sisters in
Brothers and Sisters in Christ!
we are your family too :)
we are your family too :)
A sweet sleep....that'd be
A sweet sleep....that'd be nice for a change. And thank you so much, Luke, Mountain Dew, and ForsakeNavy and everyone else! One reason that helps me cheer up a bit is knowing that you guys are all praying for me and my family. :)
Well, I'll be keeping you in
Well, I'll be keeping you in my prayers, Julia. :) And I found(Google search) a verse that kind of deals with nightmares. So take comfort in this:
Proverbs 3:24 - "When you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet."
it okay
it okay
Sorry, Mountain Dew Dude!
Sorry, Mountain Dew Dude!
Ohh yea I kinda figured that.
Ohh yea I kinda figured that...haha
I think he meant that it's
I think he meant that it's good that you say you have improved a little.
no i misread thats not good
no i misread thats not good at all i is srry
Wait, it's good that i'm
Wait, it's good that i'm having Homicidal nightmares?!
thats good to read/hear i'll
thats good to read/hear i'll keep praying for you
@KillitWithSkillet14: Meh, i
@KillitWithSkillet14: Meh, i've been better. Still having bouts of depression, (I keep hearing about sad tings) but i'm not temped to cut again, thankfully! I Keep having these horrible nightmares though and I can't sleep very well at all anymore. Last night it was like i was actually in Hell, dark fires everywhere and rocky, jagged spires of rock, and in a huge place there was a volcano, and this half-rotted carcass of a man forced me to throw everyone i love into the volcano...Idk, i have a very active imagination.
@ForsakeNavy: Thanks! That's a great saying. I do trust in Him to get me through this, but sometimes I feel so far from Him.
Pray. Pray. Pray. Look to God
Pray. Pray. Pray. Look to God for your strength. There is an old saying that I love. "The night is always darkest before the dawn." Before many situations that I have been in have gotten better, they got worse, and I felt like it wasn't going to get better. Just trust in the Lord and He will guide you.
Oh and I'm sorry to hear
Oh and I'm sorry to hear about the family members you mentioned below....
So how have you been doing,
So how have you been doing, Julia? Is your situation improving at all?
dude i feel ya and just know
dude i feel ya and just know that god will get you through these hard times that your experincing right now. I will be praying for you as much as i can every day i will pray that god be with your family so i say this(post this) to you now, god will be with you every step of the way, and for you i know that god will be with you
My Gramma is sick, my Uncle
My Gramma is sick, my Uncle and Aunt are dying, and my grandpa has to take care of my other gramma, who has really bad diabeetes. :(
@DJ: Sorry to hear bout that....@your last comment about 'from the info you're getting'....
@Forsakenavy: Thank you for that....but i really feel like i'm not ever gonna get better. I know it's the devil whos inside but it's just that i can't ever seem to shake it...
@Mad Hatter: i'm so sorry for you...i hope you and your parents get better...
I know what its like to be
I know what its like to be depressed. My parents recently go divorced and before they did stuff at home was so bad i was depressed. I was pretty bad. i'm getting better now but its really something i've had to work through. You are definitly in my prayers. Keep holding on to Jesus!
my great grandmother died in
my great grandmother died in 06
Hey, you are doing fine. I
Hey, you are doing fine. I have been depressed since third grade. It got really bad after my grandfather died of cancer back in 2007. That voice inside your head is the devil. If you let him take over your life, you will be miserable. Trust me. I know. But once you give it to God, everything will become so much easier and better. OH, by the way, temptation will increase. You just have to be able to withstand that temptation, and that can help you grow closer to God.
whats so funny?
whats so funny?
@Gracegivn: Thank you! I'm
@Gracegivn: Thank you! I'm still kinda off nowadays, still feel bad about causing soo much pain in my family, but gettin better I think. Hope you'll be okay, too.
@Vadim: Hahaha, don't worry, I used to get mistaken online for a dude with my 'attitude' all the time. :)
@Gfernandez&Dieter: Thank you!
@DJ: LOL
owww, sorry :(
owww, sorry :(
i so bad understund english and before I think man = he/she :(
really sory
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